I can remember back to a day when making important life decisions wasn't a full-time job. Now, though, life seems so complicated.
When you're not in a place of suffering, decisions are easily isolated. Seemingly, their outcomes would have little bearing on anything else. As the important choices and opportunities of life come rolling down the conveyor belt one-by-one, you just quickly assess and decide. Easy.
The same cannot be said when the weight of the world is upon you. Every choice you make affects the whole of your life (and others). Simple decisions have a gravity that they never had before. Your pain becomes louder as you realize how complex the problem really is.
How do you deal with a complicated life? Well, sometimes you stall, or you avoid -hoping that somehow the giant knot will just unravel itself.
Note: Knots never unravel themselves.
So I have begun the process of untying the knot - which at times seems like I'm going backwards.
Have you ever watched someone untie a knot. It's no fun. There's frustration and anger and confusion.