...but it's not the kind of tired that has any justifiable satisfaction attached to it (often referred to as "a good kind of tired"). No, the kind of tiredness I feel is that of a cyclist halfway through the Tour de France. Very little time to recover, and all you have is the knowledge that you must get up tomorrow and continue the grind.
I wonder how many Tour riders want to give up in the middle?
There seems to be a noticeable difference in exhaustion caused by something you have chosen to do (ie. exercising or working late hours at the office) as opposed to an outside force imposing it upon you. The former is the go-to for New Year's resolutions, but the latter has the ability to defeat routine and give light to true change. Few have endured the latter type of exhaustion.
Exhaustion can teach us a lot about ourselves. It can force us to learn about extended limitations that we never knew we had -- all of the sudden new categories in our mind and body exist where, before, there were none.
On this first day of 2017 many will contemplate life change and renewal. Schedules will be altered, calendars amended, memberships will be renewed and self-help books will be purchased.
Today I can only endeavor to maintain exhaustion.
Happy New Year.