I'm not angry - I'm just upset. And I think that I've been upset for a long time.
As a child I was raised to be a good person and if you were to rewind the tape of Jason Ostrander's adult life you would see that for the most part I have strived for goodness.
Somewhere in the neutral space, though, being good became good enough. Life had taken a turn. I had become hollow and myopic.
Metaphorically speaking, my life had become a large warehouse filled with stacks of boxes labelled "Good Job", "Well Done", and "That Was Amazing". Daily I would visit this warehouse and deposit experiences into their appropriate containers. Repeatedly visiting this warehouse brought me to exhaustion.
That's when I was upset. My life had been taken out at the knees - every facet of it. I was an unsuspecting punt returner who was unaware of the oncoming tackler.
Why did it happen? Why didn't I see this coming?
Many years ago I was introduced to a gem of a film starring Danny DeVito, Kevin Spacey and Peter Facinelli. The Big Kahuna is a well written story about two veteran salesmen who are attempting to make the biggest sales pitch of their lives -only to have it complicated by the addition of their new, young protege. (Very compelling film. Definitely worth the watch.)
Recently I watched this film with new eyes. This dialogue between Phil (DeVito) and Bob (Facinelli) does an amazing job at showcasing a life "upset". As an aside, the parallel themes between Bob's life and my own are uncanny.